Maybe we're not meant to understand...

and maybe at this point that's a good thing!

So I didn't think life could get any nuttier than it was... but alas I was WRONG... dead wrong. So I found out last Tuesday that my place of employment will be shuttering it's door on June 25th. Amazing stuff. So I will be out of a job, with no income, and a house, 2 horses, a car, and all the bills that come with having all of that business... lovely. Soon I'll be knocking on your door asking if I can sleep on your couch, mind you I'll have my two dogs with me as well, so make room!

To be honest maybe this is what I need. A break from reality. Though I guess losing everything you have all at once is a form of reality, maybe not the kind that anyone really wants, but it's probably a form of reality. So all I can do is breathe and try and get through each day. Growing up sucks. This is something I'm actually sure of, and that's the only thing I'm actually sure of at the moment. Oh man Debbie Downer is coming out. Let me shut her back in the closet for awhile... I guess the closet isn't a good place for her, that could lead to all other kinds of connotations, so let's stick her in the laundry room for now, or the basement. That sounds a little better.

Anyway, on a positive note I did get to go back to the burg and do some fun things recently. I had lunch with Zim, who I haven't seen in human form in almost 4 or 5 years. Funny, another life altering choice that I made, and it had been good for us both in the end, but just as life is crumbling on my end her we go back to full circle. Amazing stuff. But I guess people come around for reasons and survival is a good reason to come around. Anyway we had a great bitch fest 09 while eating delicious Texas Roadhouse food, I think our server wanted to kill us since we sat there for almost 2 hours and our bill was only like 20 combined... oh well deal with it! So we made plans for a bitch fest 09 2.0, this time involving drinking and lots of laughing. Good times ahead my friends, good times.

I also was able to give a jumping clinic for the kids at the barn. It was alot of fun and I miss those kids like Whoa. So hopefully now that I am jobless I can get to see them more often. That would be awesome. Considering 4 of my kids are running off to college at the end of the summer... oh man I feel old!

In other news, I managed to plant some flowers and mulch around my garage. Go me! I wanted to whack the rose bushes down in the back by the firepit but I was under-tooled to be able to do that, my $39 hedge trimmers weren't going to cut the mustard on that task, and I knew the weed whacker wasn't going to work either... so maybe I'll just buy some mulch and try and make it look pretty for now... that's really all I can do right?

That's about all I've got going on at the moment... and it's frankly enough to last me awhile.... but I promise! To write more. If nothing else for my own sanity.

Long live oreos.